Finally , our illegal cohabitation life is ended. A good ending for both I and she. I should give her a marriage to take my responsibility of this eight-year relationship. In the past eight years, I never betrayed her, at least no carnal betrayal,though I’m not sure about her. I understand clearly that there will be a long way to go from now, no matter I am ready or not, I should behave as a good husband, to love the family, to love her, to construct a better future for both of us, to avoid unnecessary romance. Maybe I’m just a little nervous and don’t know what to say. Anyway, marriage is one of the most important events of my insignificant life.
Finally, the Olympic Game is near at hand, and I decide to write something about it for the first time. In 2001, when the bid for 2008 Olympic Games succeeded, I was worried about my own future more than anything else. I didn’t expect to live four years in the Capital at that time, but to leave there three years before the opening ceremony of the Olympic Games. It seems that the connection between this great event and me is much weaker than with others from the very beginning,I never felt such the pride and excitation like others thence.
Another unconscious resistant emotion is partly from the business atmosphere, and partly from the political atmosphere. There are too many torchbearers, too many sponsors, and cost too much time for too long and too many torch relay ceremonies. My left passion is exhausted. Further more, vanialthough we propagandized to disjoin Sports and Politics, we invited more presidents I guess more than any previous game, is that an attempt to link the two things together, and is that a waste of taxpayers’ money? Plus the natural disasters，I really don’t care about the Olympic Game that much.
However, as a Chinese, although much weaker than others, I still feel the pride, and expect a successful sports ceremony pageant. We’ve been waiting for a bit too long for it. It seems like a train coming from far far away in the plain, you can see it very clearly, but it runs so slowly, almost static, and your patience is gradually lost. But suddenly, it howling spanks in front of you, and you feel like to be awaken, and blindly you runs following it, screaming with it, your lost enthusiasm all comes back.
Actually, the train ignores your existance, always. It comes fast and goes quickly as a wind. It leaves you behind relentlessly, with nothing but fading memory.
Today, Yao Ming and his team welcomed their first victory, they defeated probably the weakest team–Angolan with a score 84-73. Later, the American team also winned their revenge battle with the Greek.
The Chinese Men Basketball Team showed strong desire for victory from the beginning of this Olympic Game, it’s a representation of sports spirit–the result is not that important for the natural strength is different from team to team, However, we should respect the game itself, and show your best aspects to the audience. Yao Ming and his teamates did a very good job, which humiliated the Chinese Men Football Team, if they know what humiliation is.
NBA has the best basket ball players of the world. However, the failures in recent international games made the American embarrassed, if they can’t win a gold medal this time, people will doubt the actual condition of NBA. In the first two games, American team met China and Angola, although they winned easily, they just didn’t get a chance to prove themselves. Tonight, they let nobody down but the Greek.
Emanuel Ginobili, my favorite basketball player, and the Argentine team is fighting for the dignity. They lost their last game, and have to get a victory to keep the top position in the group. They are holding a lead of 17 points, and the victory is coming closer and closer. However, there is still a long way for Gino to go, and there is also a long way for Bryant, and I hope, if possible, Yao Ming can also go as far as possible.
Come on, everyone, and I expect the following games will be more exciting.
(The Crawlspace of the World by Tim Pratt)
I don’t know what I’m waiting for, which result is better. Choice A: continue the current routine; Choice B: continue the current routine in a new environment; Choice C: start a new routine in a new environment.
Every time when we have to make a decision, we will never know which choice will be better until the future finally comes. Maybe I should just accept one of them without requiring too much, or maybe my request is only a reflection of my subconscious.
Now the choice is not only up to me, I have to wait for their responses. I know there is no perfect decision, but after these days, I start to know what I’m expecting.
All I need is something new.
I can’t know you before I meet you, but I want to chase the footprints left behind you: I want to know how lovely you were when you were a little girl, I want to play with you in the kindergarten, I want to borrow you a pencil so that I could say “Thanks” to you, I want to tell you how much I love as soon as I was ready to fall in love…
I called Jimmy, but he didn’t know the reason either.
Just be more patient.
Try to live as nothing happened.
Be a good friend.
Be a good son.
Be a good husband.
Be a good brother.
Be a good employee.
Be a good reader.
I found that I still care about this little brother very much, though we have been seperated for many years. However, maybe I still don’t know how to be a good brother, maybe there is already an impassable gulf between us. I want to help, but I don’t know how, we are consanguinities, but we can’t get close to each other. Sadly.
When I opened my Douban diary last night, I felt like personality splited. Some of the articles were replied with my own name, and I could not remember anything at all.
However, I recognised from the tone soon after, that it was Joanna who used the computer and browsed my articles. As I didn’t log off before I left. My registered name was kept on the computer, thus her reply was deemed to be under my name.
Anyway, thanks for your attention.
From the very beginning of our lives, the world and the people are of little difference. However, as we grow up, the differences are becoming more and more obvious. Dad and mom, brother and sister, uncle and aunt…, I don’t know when we learned to classify people this way, but it obviously one of our characteristics now.
We have our family, have our friends, we tell the closest people that we love them, but we can do nothing to the strangers, or to those we have no reason to get closer, and vice versa.
I wish that one day, all men and women will live like brother and sister, and the whole world will look like a big family. Let us treat the others the way as if they are our family members.